Poetic Psychology
(An Actor Who Had
Lost His Confidence)
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| Poetic Psychology |
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| Dramatic Irony |
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| A Stage Fright |
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| Venue Of Escapism |
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| Someone Of Note |
My elder brother told me, it was just an ant
bite. No harm done whatever, and everything would go as simple as ABC. Anyway
it was just a poetic psychology or a dramatic irony. Just an attempt to boost
my spirits and strength. Probably I was just an actor who had lost his
confidence and suffered a stage fright. Yet, the circumcision still triggered
fear in me. Feeling afraid to count each day to be circumcised. However I
couldn't help myself or reject the appointed day. The closer the day, the more
scary I felt. There was no venue of escapism and no way to switch dimensions.
What a fright moment. Anyhow that moment would be my history then. That’s the
beginning to be someone of note.
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| Scary Moments |
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| Scared To Death |
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| Really Scary |
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| Ideal Situation |
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| Circumcision Ritual |
However the clock seemed ticking quickly. As
if to challenge my courage. But I was
anxious and depressed to think of scary
moments. Nobody cared about me, who was scared
to death. So that morning as early as six o'clock, my dad told me to
dive into Sungai Choh. So I was forced to cycle down the road with heart beating
moments. It only took 5 minutes to reach the river bridge. So fast, it's like
being chased by a ghost. Little did I realize that I was pursuing all that
energy. It's really scary to think of something
would happen to me. However, that's the beginning of once upon a time story.
After a few dive I was chilled to the bone, the ideal
situation to go through the the religious
circumcision ritual. Later I cycled home, but then my body got warm
again.
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| Unpopular Figure |
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| Psychological Effect |
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| Not So Friendly |
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| Banana Trunk |
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| Worthy Of Respect |
Finally the unpopular
figure of Tok Ain, popular called Tok Mudim, came with a broad smile.
Yet it did not bring any psychological effect.
But suddenly the atmosphere became tense and not so
friendly. As if the situation did not welcome someone's presence.
Anxious and nervous began to dominate my confidence and courage. Even my fear
was getting worse. It seemed my fear reached its end then. However, I could not
change what's going to happen. I could not even postpone the ritual. There was
no magic wand to change the upcoming event. So with tremble hands I just sat on
the banana trunk. Then, all of a sudden it
happened, without me completely aware of the moments. By then, for just a few
seconds, I was a man worthy of respect.
Eligible to have a girl friend, as told by my elder brother.
